Happy Chinese New Year =]

yo buddies...have a wonderful Chinese New Year there!!?
ox year huh?nice...my dad's sign..LOL but he always argue with me he's a tiger!! argh!!kinda crazy right?cause he's bday is on the 1st January..=.= don't even know what his own sign...gosh..anyways!you're definitely an OX ba bie!!cause i said so LOL *GONG XI FA CAI* sobsob..no red packets for me this year =.= gotta go to school somemore..haha...US!!!!!but my school's nice..too populated as i said..so the state tests week they gotta close for a whole week for those who take the tests..(me~~) by the way im only going on the thursday..haha..math A regents =.= easy as ABC not too proud..hope i get good grade =] god bless~~ hmmpf!just had a whole week rest staying up late like now and waking up NOON!T__T well tonight is the last night...bye my husband~(my smell-good-bed)haha did you all enjoy your CNY?hope yeah...but for me..its tooooooooo ordinary..not even a new year feel..what do you expect in US? angpaos? gamblings with relatives and friends? harddrinks? mandarins? cookies? 'yeesang'? firecrackers? NOPE!all you got is .....*tadaaaa* SCHOOL~and homeworks + tests =] nice? *HI-FI* haha anyways....after tml...gotta be back to school again..but the 2nd term!wonder who'll be my new classmates..hope some didn't change sigh...definitely!!!!!!!!!NO MORE GYM~~~~~~~~~*hurray~* ole~ole~ole~ole~ wakaka
gonna be out of my mind when i think of it =] alright gotta go to bed before im kicked to................LOL Happy CNY *cheers* (yum shing)
~Sae-Rin

my 'little' confession

dear lord, whoever you are, please forgive all that i had done.....its..its...really late to realize what i had done can't be rewind back like a CD or DVD player T__T isn't it too late? that i just realize it after i came here, to US.people always say you'll only appreciate someone or something after they are gone. it's too late to mend the problems....yeah i guess it's true for me =.= sorry grampa, ahgong!! for what I've done..i always knew i treated you coldly and never respect you at all.i always thought that you are very annoying, having nothing to say besides calling out all my 'boy' friends names and asking me how they are. i know you are lonely, sitting at the corner alone everyday, waiting for us to chat with you. i know you don't know what else to say to me other than simply asking questions to start a convo.. i know...i know that....sorry..i know you always want me to be happy and always fulfilled whatever i asked. in return, i treat you as a 'bank' or 'waterfish' to buy things that babie and amie won't buy for me. i thought that i must respect you because i have received favors and gifts from you and that's why i always rejected your gifts and money just so i don't have to respect you. i was wrong i was so wrong i should shoot myself!!! how can i thought it that way!!! forgive my stupidity and disrespectful deeds.. im terribly sorry. as a granddaughter i should respect you regardless of anything!! what the hell was i doing before!! i had always hated you for not respecting my gramma and saying bad things about her but i know that's because you're jealous of how i treat her better than you... i know....even when you miss us and tried to call us here, i spoke rudely to you. sorry...i know i should have been hanged... i'm now so far away from you.. i can't visit you even you're sick.. i'm sorry... i'll try to call you more often. please take care your health, no more worries cause we're doing well here. sorry

-disrespectful child-

revealing =]

my day to crap again...suddenly got on the nerves to crap! i wrote about those studying habits(or lifestyles?) but actually that's not all..just what i saw or thought of....you can say that's not true..(no debates please =.=)no questions about it but that's just my personal opinions =]
talk about the people here hmm..to be specific is students actually..erm what about it? yeah..before i came here i always heard people talked about how free and relax studying in the U.S. is but you should not say that not until you personally experienced it....you know, some kinda people listens from the others something they don't even bother to ask the question ''It is true?'' and just plant in their mind what they heard about =.= this is what GOSSIPS start from!!which i hate so much..happening in my hometown..ok stop!i don't wanna mention 'that' every time in my blogs..=.= should act like ''So, what!!!?'' or using their language ''Talk LAH Talk LAH'' LOL back to topic...i think if i really wanna enjoy the kinda 'relax' they talked about, i just prepared to be a garbage collector or something like that. you can! but you'll screwed up your future...=.= the education system in NY is what i think golden chance for people here. How i wish i had born here!! if you really work hard..you can take AP(advance program) or HONOR courses and boost your studies to the highest ever and graduate faster than those older than you..like my every class has different ages and grades students in there..some 9 some 10 some 11 even 12! those 12 really need to work harder cause 9graders' learning the same thing with them..=.= but here they never really care about your age or grade..if you tell them you are 20 years old and still studying high school they go like 'uh huh' there's nothing wrong with it..BUT compare with my old ACS???.......just once...just once...tell them you are friggin' 20!!! ''someBODY'' will auto-spread the news maybe faster than HIV virus attacking your cells =.= am i hyperbole-ing?HELL NO!!
sadly, the people here never seems to bother about this chance and only some make it up after being pushed by their strict parents...also..after about almost 4months in my HS, i found out either the students or their parents are very 'pampered' by the loose laws of the school.(or their practice from long ago?idk)just a little raining will stop them from going to school. LOL how would school be if this happen in Malay? it almost rains everyday there for some seasons=.= Rain or snow is the same thing..when it snows the parents will keep their children at home even their 12graders!parents just need to write an absence note to the teacher and it's okay..absence is not a big deal here....some kids just cut the class for a whole month =] ah ah!not a tiny little worry about their grades =.= *I SALUTE THEE* moreover, tests are not EVERYTHING!like in Malay..failing your test?=go to hell LOL here they made up the grading policy : 40% from tests(i think there's a huge uproar if happens in ACS=.=); 20% from quizzes grades; 20% from homework; and 20% from your classwork and class participation(must rise up your hand and answer or ask questions)
personally i thought this policy is far more better than only tests decide your grades..MOST IMPORTANTLY!they never like to let the whole school to know your grades beside the teacher and you AND no comparing w/one another like in Malay which shows up your grades to PUBLIC(even if not they will spread it, no worries=.=) and put you in a freaking list!!!!who's top 1?who's the top 10s?and who's the LAST?F*** there's no such thing here..=] MEANS NO STRESS OR FEELING BAD~~~ but i think that's what make the students here not eager to study much...alrighty then my crapping is too flooding! time to stop, annyongkaseyo~ RMB!next time on the SYLVIA CHANNEL everyday from 4pm to 9pm =.= just crapping, don't mind?

anecdotes...blah blah =.=

lol too lazy to blog =.= and my brothers keep bugging me like every moment..can't even touch the laptop or pc Oh Snap!let's see what's up-
=kept cutting gym for a whole month (99.9% failing for the 3rd marking period gym)
=had a whole week of FINALS (*argh* i hate the word..final..=.= made my head spins..marking period is over soon so...TESTs!! =.=)
=had a fun day on Wednesday =] actually i cut my last period aka sleeping period (media studies..BORING!)and when to hang out with JiEun..not hang out actually..no i mean we need to prepare for the History final today. at first we planned to go to the school library but that's my period and its not over yet. means: i'll be kicked out (need to swipe my id card at the entrance but 100% will show RED..means cutting =.=) so...yeah we went to McDonalds..saw her mom waiting for her outside the school holding her jacket LOL (what a caring OMONI!!!) the weather was real cold and IMO (means aunty in korean) walked such a long way and wait her daughter outside....yeyeye and she thought im a korean too and kept on speaking korean with me =.= gosh..how i wish i could reply her..i just O..O..O..its like yes in korean ~.~
we walked to McDonalds and she wanna change place (she's timid & don't like crowded places) so i bring her to the Little Neck library by bus..=] honestly we never even start the 'study' thingy but just chitchatting until it got dark 5pm something and went home ~<3 koreans
=just thought of a new aim for 2009 that's to learn KOREAN =] i really enjoy being with my korean friends (LOVE THEM MUCH!!) rather than chinese or whatever..i mean in Cardozo =.= would like to spend my summer holiday this year to take korean language classes but i need to work for the fees =.=
=got closer with MeiLing (chinese friend) she's in my sleeping period class so we walked and took bus together after school..and i left Britney (aww..i feel bad) ML speaks cantonese with me but actually she knows mandarin better..she always tell me her cantonese sucks (yeah i know haha) she's here for 8 years O.O!!!
=Friday again!!this weekend should be longer but not really...time here BOLTS like lighting..=.= not flies..sometimes i can't believe im here for more than half a year anyways im off for Monday (Martin Luther King day)

after snow storm..weather made me sad

yesterday had been snowing heavily and its freezing...wind feels like slashing the face and ears!but it stops in the midnight....and start frozen up into ice which makes the ground so wet and slippery as hell =.=
reminds me of Kampar..always rains and wet and makes me think of it so dearly..aww idk why but memories keep flashing in my mind..my friends who always joked with me, fooled around, said or done something funny, and the words they used to talk LOL like when im in my english class that day i thought of Yikuan tickling and teasing me =.= and keep thinking someone who sits beside me will suddenly zoom over and kiss my face just like Rose haha what a mind Siwing!!!all hallucinations of my stupid mind =.= haunting me every moment when it snows.....not haunting actually..they are my friends right!=] its the golden memories in Malay............chatting with Wongjoe last night made me thought back our funny and quarreling memories..what a laugh i had..
today im thinking about them again and i realize i keep using the kinda words they used to talk to me =.= of course its in cantonese LOL like i still use 'dog' & 'deng' to scold my brothers...haha but my parents don't like that and i can't control my speech..T___T help me...S.O.S.
tonight when im having dinner with my family, suddenly i used their(my friends') words again...i can't believe i just burped out the sentences ''omg i wanna eat that piece of chicken but don't know which FANSHU(means sweet potatoes) ate that'' zzzzzz GOSH...that potato word is always heard from Jessie...darn..once my dad heard it he just started to yell at me..=.= sigh he said my mouth is just as bad as hell T__T
hmm..kinda sad now..thursday im planning to cut school =] not cut actually..my mom allowed cause the weather is going to be almost MINUS 14 celcius
im not that kinda people who 'risk' their lives to school to study..LOL are you?anywayjust see what happen first!

jason mraz the bomb!

LOL just wanna share songs from Jason Mraz =]
he's so cute and really is a great musician!
try I'm Yours and Lucky -ft. Colbie Cailat(another great voice)
that's what i put there in this blog =X enjoy~

the 1.5meters salami sandwich i said that day =.=









10% of the food i mention =.=







PRESENTS~









its my dad's birthday 1st Jan =]





taking with uncle ben






singing birthday song =] im so fat already =.= those balloons behind are those kids used to carry around the school on their birthdays(normally 1 to 5balloons or more)

2OO9??naw...just that same!

i'd skipped some weeks again~~ LOL
skipped the merry merry merry merry Christmas!!and a Happy New Year 2009
but actually idk if its really a 'happy new year'
recession's all over...economy is bad as hell...so many homeless people around..awww and i can't go back to Malay!!jobless people...not my parents of course!but i know jealousy occurs everywhere!!SOME hatred people's spreading news about my family having a hard time here, IN NEW YORK!darn..!come one..even after we took a far far flight sitting more than 24hours in the plane to US they still wanna gossip about my family??GOSH!must be a rebirth of the CROWS!but that's good though..i realize my family is like some kinda celebrity to them LOL and they're like those freaking paparazzi...proud to be a member of the CELEBRITY *cheers*
-had a 2weeks winter break..not actually 2weeks i think!only 1week and 3days off!spent the days by overturn my daily routine!woke up at 3PM every single day and slept around 4AM every night...and that's what made me late for this week to school. used to the schedule =.= but my friend's worse than me..she cut the first 3days of school because she can't wake up too LOL bad girl huh JiEun...........
-went to a Christmas party at my uncle's house..gathering with all the relatives here
-got some Xmas presents..ate like a cow..LOL imagine one day with 5FULL meals..let's see, they had sushiS, chocolateS, clam chouder, lobster spread with crackers, ONE WHOLE lobster for me with butter sauce, seafood tomato soup and garlic bread with cheese spread, wild rice with mushroom and chicken stuffs, fried dumplings, roast pork, A 1.5METERS long salami sandwich cut into pieces, mashed potato with turkey gravy, caesar salad with branch, macaroni and cheese with potato salad WOW looks like i only remember 30% of the food...and that makes my stomach growling now...stop stop gotta STOP!!!!!!!!!!!!OK talk about presents..got a cute pink pajamas from Ling Jie, a new HP printer and computer from Uncle Ben & family, a keyboard from all of them(but i bought one so they gotta return it, and now im thinking what i want =] and yeah they asked me if i want a WII *weee~~* a nintendo Wii~~~but im still thinking about it =.=)
-new year eve is not celebrated and just like normal to be BUT by wishing my dad HAPPY BIRTHDAY!oh yeah it's his birthday 1st January =]sorry no presents for you, babie T___T i heard they had a firework display in Manhattan but the weather's not so inviting..LOL freezing cold and it's snowing =.= nobody wanna get sick for just watching the fireworks far in the city right, do you?and actually we planned to go Flushing for a dim sum breakfast(OMG HOW A MISS DIM SUM..i just ate those microwave dim sum sometimes =.=)but it's like the coldest new year ever!!!around -9degree celcius..so we just stayed home eating microwave dim sum again =.= awww...but this time we have choo cheong fun also =] p.s. : not that nub CCY!!
-any new aims and wishes for this year??hmmm..i don't think so cause it's just the same old thing going to the same school doing the same stuffs EVERYDAY so..that made no changes..never thought of working harder because I AM!!and i'll die stressing up if i would wished that LOL and i never done any really bad stuffs so i don't need a change i guess =.= and the point is i can't afford to wish anything..just dreammmm like we haven't settled down in NY so my parents need sometime to fulfil my wishes so you can think of what i wish =.= i want a hair-do, an iPhone if possible if not just a phone would be pleased T__T, some new clothes cause CNY's coming =], an iPod maybe, and i want to go back Malay!but that's too way expensive!stop dreaming SiWing!

my happenings in the school since September made me realized the way kind of studying ways of the people in NY, maybe the whole US =.= the Asians of course would be the most hardworking people if you think it in a stereotype way but in my humble opinion as Mr.Choo says(LOL i won't forgot somebody that caught me up every morning for lateness and gave me a long 'JESUS' stories) , it's true..there's some exceptions though. like some kids who had been here long or borned(not only Asians here may behave badly like cutting classes, smoking, and stuffs like that(you can think about it) but many who just came or those like 2 or 3 years are very dilligent. maybe because their english is not as good or they need to catch up the studies here or for me it's like some kind of GOLDEN CHANCE for me to re-study all things i missed in Malay...(i did cut class in FORM4 almost everyday and i won't rmb it) for the black race...ohh most of them are like cutting classes and late everyday, playing around when the teacher's teaching, listening to mp3S and texting msgs, stuffs like that =.= but not to say all..some are really good =]
for those spanish is the same but they're better than them at least they come to class everyday early =.= but they just do the same thing...chatting, making noise, like having a party or some sort LOL also some of them are the good ones like my friend Britney(but she always skipped her homeworks =.=) alrighty i'll just stop talking about the races because i feel like im such a freaking racist zzzzzz
just talk about 3types of ways i found..
-1st one is those who work like a cow for their 99% average in report card and they made me sick!! ''all works no play make JACK a DULL boy'' wakaka
-2nd one is like doing what you suppose to...but not as good as the 1st ones and like when they done their like OK I'M GOOD~ they wont fail anyways cause they do what they're told so no worries!!
-3rd one is those....cut classes, cut school w/o absence notes, late to classes, never do any works or sometimes copy people's work and hand it in, never study at all just like having a resort at school =.=
what am i?oh my god honestly idk...im like the middle of the 1st one and the 2nd. cause i'm some kind of perfectionist but now really is..got me?LOL like if i really wanna do it i'll do it real good not just simply do it and hand in but sometimes i feel like not doing it and just skipped the work......haha complicated right? but yeah im like the 2nd that just make sure i do whatever was told..(sometimes not) and i'll like doing it for myself like the arm curl test in gym when you can do as much as you possible and some freaks really like showing off doing until hundreds or something but all they get is a GOOD and all those *applause & cheering* if you got around 30something you can get a GOOD already..but those freaks are sooo.....=.=
for me i'll do until like 20 and just stop there thinking ''oh~i'm good....=]''

the 3rd marking period or the last one is ending soon around 1Xth of Jan..so all the freaking tests are like rushing to me.=.= gotta study!
also the twentieth week is the regent week =.= STATE TESTS!!i got one MATH A regents so wish me luck =]