fuuuuuu~fuuuu~~~ whoa!my blog got so dusty and spider-webbed after so long. LOL can say that i'm lazy kind of..but since this very term started i seemed like very busy and stressed. Had been bothering by many things lately, worrying about my future. Actually my busy is not to study, i don't even have the time to study. Tonnes of homework waiting for me to do everyday. Wake up at 6.30am every morning rush to school at 7am and come back at around 1.40pm. 6hours without eating anything might be a BIG problem to me who has gastritis. After i had done all my things including homework i realize it's 11pm or 12pm sometimes. And the next day, same thing happens, and happens again the following days. Worrying my future would mean i am not sure about my college and stuffs things as now i am in grade 11, the year to plan and decide everything about colleges. I am still new to the stuffs here and this is what bothering me, confusing me and also annoying me! Besides all these, i am also worried about my next place to stay. Before, i kept saying to myself that i am going to stay in New York for the rest of my high school years until i graduated and go somewhere for college or University. In fact, my parents had told me long ago that we're suppose to move soon as they don't like it here, too crowded, too polluted, too expensive, and too stressed. No time to rest at all! But i know all these do i, city life man....and i'm not 3years old!i know what is going on and most of all i love this place very much!!! The school pleases me, the people pleases me, everything is good as hell. Why they wanna moved? Why? I realize i was denying the fact that i am leaving this place when one night my parents gathered all of us and told me face to face ''we're moving this summer'' Oh shit this really hurt me a lot! I feel as if my mind was going to crack soon after hearing this, an undeniable truth! All the time i was telling myself i would stay, i would stay a thousand times were ALL LIES..i am a liar..then i hold myself so hard and walked quietly to my bed and as soon as i covered all myself in my blankie, i started to cry so badly for almost an hour and i am not boasting or hyperbole-ing. Amie came in after a while asking me if i am ok but i didn't make a sound. Not even sniffing or sobbing. I pretended to fall asleep but she found out that i was not. She didn't force me to 'wake up' or whatever. She sit down besides me and told me in tears why we wanna leave for the new place. Yes i knew it, i knew it...sorry...finally i started to accept it and now i am looking forward to move there for a better life, or maybe studies. Everything my parents do is for my own good. So i just follow whatever they wish, i finally learn to think like that after crying for an hour. What a dummy am i! Well, forgot to write that the new place i am looking forward to is Texas, a very huge state in the US, also has 5 of the fattest cities in US in it. Hope i won't be the fat one though...HAHA Amie told me many wonderful things in TX and also the stupidity of her foster brother, Uncle Freddie who is living there too. Back to present, i am doing very good in my studies. All my courses seem no problems to me except for some fussy teachers and my social studies class. I barely pass that history class this marking period!!! Oh yeah, i am so happy that i was asked to join the Arista National Honor Society which only welcome 90% average above members in. Also to be proud is that many people here wished to join it but they can't even they got a 90% or higher. Weirdly, me who just came here not long can join it. Haha! God bless!! This society will give me my better advantages to enroll in a better college or university next time. However, once you be the member you must maintain your grade average 90% and above if not will be kicked out! This is what i am worrying about, my social studies class.....SIGH i am dead ass if i am kicked out cause the joining fees is $50 for one time ever. But if remain in it would be worth. If my History grade this time is lower than 77 i would probably die. LOL Mr. Lin my life is in your hand....OMGGGG alright this becomes a long ass post if i don't stop. Even i stop its also long enough =.=
